1/27/2013

Some observations this morning:  One thing I really like about living here with my sister is having these opportunities to discuss things with her; to engage in conversation and share insights with someone who is like-minded and interested in the same things.  And we both feel very grateful that we get along so well; that we like and respect each other.  We are in some ways very different from each other, but are in many other ways very much alike.  I think that we cohabitate very well.

At times I have wondered if it has been too hard for Cherie to adapt to my presence, if she has felt that I “cramp her style” in any significant way.  But this morning she shared with me some insights she has been having about the fact that, here we are, two women, trying independently but at the same time to deal with years of trauma and difficulty and heal.  And how we both have the “space” now to do that; we are patient with each other and kind; and how remarkable it is that we both have this unique opportunity to take all of this stuff and to heal – and there have been so many serendipitous occurrences, so much synchronicity; it’s been very powerful and profound – to both of us, at different stages of our individual “journeys.”

I have been having similar impressions so I am grateful to hear that she likewise feels this way.  I reminded her that, back when she first came up with this idea – to have her husband move out and have me and Dalton move in – I had told her that it was absolutely INSPIRED.  And so it is; she has saved both of us.

And my journey here thus far has been to “clear” out all my “stuff” that has been dragging me down over the years; I want to assimilate and integrate all the learning and growing and collecting of things that I have done; all the changing and moving upward I have been embarking on and struggling with; trying to finally follow my goals.  I’m trying to clear up all my internal “unfinished business” and gather myself together in the Present – and then tackle the external “stuff” that needs to be cleared out to bring my environment and my Entire Being into a space that feels clean, ordered, and free – where I can move forward with my goals and dreams; cleaning house, inside and out; organizing my Soul. This is essentially about moving up on the “Integrity Tone Scale.”  And it feels necessary, and good.

 

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